Or rather, not.Insomnia…free time
extra hours
actually finishing the “to do” list
being alone in the store (because it’s 2am)
writing
befriending stars

being alone in the dark
feeling like a ghost in your own house
laying awake in a tired body
counting sheep, goats, the whole damn barnyard
the tick tock tick tock tick tock tick…
dreaming of sleeping

frustration
glaring at a refuge-less bed
sleeping while awake
endless, dayless, nightless
depression*
awake

Insomnia.
Written July 2007

*This is not clinical depression, just the depressing realization that insomnia is an endless, cycleless sort of cycle. And you have my sympathy if you also understand that description.

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